This is a big moment for any artist (this moment of combined triumph and disappointment), when we have to decide whether to accept a work of art that we have to admit we werenât in control of as we made it and of which weâre not entirely sure we approve. It is less, less than we wanted it to be, and yet itâs more, tooâitâs small and a bit pathetic, judged against the work of the great masters, but there it is, all ours.