Quieting these voices is at least half the battle I fight daily. But this is better than it used to be. It used to be 87 percent. Left to its own devices, my mind spends much of its time having conversations with people who arenât there. I walk along defending myself to people, or exchanging repartee with them, or rationalizing my behavior, or seducing them with gossip, or pretending Iâm on their TV talk show or whatever. I speed or run an aging yellow light or donât come to a full stop, and one nanosecond later am explaining to imaginary cops exactly why I had to do what I did, or insisting that I did not in fact do it.
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There are a number of things that help when you sit down to write dialogue. First of all, sound your wordsâread them out loud. If you canât bring yourself to do this, mouth your dialogue. This is something you have to practice, doing it over and over and over. Then when youâre out in the worldâthat is, not at your deskâand you hear people talking, youâll find yourself editing their dialogue, playing with it, seeing in your mindâs eye what it would look like on the pageâŚ
Second, remember that you should be able to identify each character by what he or she says. Each one must sound different from the others. And they should not all sound like you; each one must have a self. If you can get their speech mannerisms right, you will know what theyâre wearing and driving and maybe thinking, and how they were raised, and what they feel. You need to trust yourself to hear what they are saying over what you are sayingâŚ
Third, you might want to try putting together two people who more than anything else in the world wish to avoid each other, people who would avoid whole cities just to make sure they wonât bump into each other. But there are people out there in the world who almost inspire me to join the government witness protection program, just so I can be sure I will never have to talk to them again. Maybe there is someone like this in your life. Take a character whom one of your main characters feels this way about and put the two of them in the same elevator. Then let the elevator get stuck. Nothing like a supercharged atmosphere to get things going. Now, they both will have a lot to say, but they will also be afraid that they wonât be able to control what they say.
Even if the new isnât really new, itâs always new for those who, ceaselessly, wash up on the worldâs shores, generation after generation, wave after wave. So, in order to find yourself in life, to not lose yourself on the path, you must listen to the voice of duty. To think too much about yourself is to falter. Whoever understands this secret has the potential to live in peace. But itâs easier said than done.
Frank talk, spirited debate, laughter, and love. If I could distill a Braintrust meeting down to
its most essential ingredients, those four things would surely be among them. But newcomers often notice something else first: the volume. Routinely, Braintrust attendees become so energized and excited that they talk over each other, and voices tend to rise. Iâll admit that there have been times when outsiders think theyâve witnessed a heated argument or even some kind of intervention. They havenât - though I understand their confusion, which stems from their inability (after such a brief visit) to grasp the Braintrustâs intent. A lively debate in a Braintrust meeting is not being waged in the hopes of any one person winning the day. To the extent there is âargument,â it seeks only to excavate the truth.
At that appointment, I half-lied about the voices. I heard voices, but they were all versions of my own voice or echoes of voices from my past. Those voices were not, I decided, the ones she was asking about. And I lied when I did not tell her about wanting to burn myself and the cook. I lied when I did not tell her about the door that had opened: The only solution is a permanent solution. My psychiatrist did not ask if there was a seismometer in my midbrain that warned of fissures that would widen into deep chasms and, eventually, into an all-consuming abyss. If she had asked about that, I might have answered honestly. Itâs difficult to say.
I donât veer off in my own preferred direction but rather stay observantly with the rambling and listen closely for any quiet indications of what the person is really trying to say. I have come to understand that rambling rhetoric is valid. It is the best way my client has to express her experiences. Here and there I interject an insightful remark based on what I am hearing, which comes through like a peal of thunder. Occasionally a client, breathless from the meaningless narration, will say, âI wish you would say something enlightening.