I was super happy with it, and Timo and Martin were about to release it, but then fell out over allocation of music publishing royalties, and Timo left the project. I guess theyād had some underlying issues with each other that this album brought out. The album was shelved as a result. I was very hurt by the experience. I felt Iād written some of the best material of my career, and it seemed they put it on the shelf to gather dust.
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Len was calm and introverted; he didnāt stalk the stage like an arrogant rock god. After a year, I had to make the really difficult decision of taking him out of the band line-up. That was really hard. We assumed he would be my guitarist, and had no idea it wasnāt going to work, and he found it difficult letting go, but we continued writing songs together, including some of our biggest hits.
Editing like this wasnāt a new idea, but the way Garth worked created a fresh take on it. It gave the music a pulsing energy that made it sound exciting. The downside was it blew your confidence out the window, because you had to do a million takes knowing you could never match that kind of perfection, which almost destroyed Mark. I had gone through the anxiety of multiple retakes on our debut album, so I could relate to what he was going through.
It felt like it was all over and done, and things looked a lot worse than they actually were. Yes, we had some serious issues to deal with; we should have been able to ride through them but we didnāt. Ultimately, I knew we werenāt in a position to make great music. At that point, if we had just stayed on the track we were on, I thought that would destroy us.
In April 2001, Leigh organised a meeting with our lawyer in his London office to discuss the future of the band, and thatās when I said to them, āYou know what, Iām done with this.ā I was angry, because I felt like I had been steering the band for a long time and taking a lot of the responsibility. Ace said, āWell, why donāt we just have a break for a couple of years?ā But I had decided I was done. I didnāt hate them ā I just felt like I was the glue trying to hold everything together. Thatās very difficult for one person to do. In hindsight, splitting up Skunk Anansie was a mistake. I should have just taken a break rather than ending it. It would have been better for us to sit down and have a blow-out, but we didnāt know how to do that; we didnāt have that level of maturity.
We came to the conclusion that we needed to look after our band. Sometimes you can fix the major breakages by simply talking about what youāve learnt. To quote one of Aceās āpearlsā of wisdom: āItās like breaking a leg, it hurts, I can walk again, but Iāve no desire to break the other leg!ā There were a few raw, honest moments. In the time apart, Iād seen Cass a lot, because we were friends before we formed Skunk Anansie, and as Mark rehearsed with Feeder in the room next to mine, we were always bumping into each other, and he had played on some of my solo tracks.
Seven years apart gave us a decent amount of time to look back and reflect on our band dynamic and what we had achieved. My perspective had changed ā I was much less stressed and better at living in the moment. Iād been through a lot of challenges as a solo artist, I was better at problem solving and I had lost my fear of the unknown. Everything had gone so well, and we enjoyed putting together the live album so much that we decided to continue and go on tour. This would be unknown territory; we didnāt know if the magic would be the same.