I find this happening all the time. I like the person I am in my stories better than I like the real me. That person is smarter, wittier, more patient, funnierāhis view of the world is wiser. When I stop writing and come back to myself, I feel more limited, opinionated, and petty.
But what a pleasure it was, to have been, on the page, briefly less of a dope than usual.
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A story is a frank, intimate conversation between equals. We keep reading because we continue to feel respected by the writer. We feel her, over there on the production end of the process, imagining that we are as intelligent and worldly and curious as she is. Because sheās paying attention to where we are (to where sheās put us), she knows when we are āexpecting a changeā or āfeeling skeptical of this new developmentā or āgetting tired of this episode.ā (She also knows when sheās delighted us and that, in that state, weāre slightly more open to whatever sheāll do next.)
And look at that: the more I know about her, the less inclined I feel to pass a too-harsh or premature judgment. Some essential mercy in me has been switched on. What God has going for Him that we donāt is innite information. Maybe thatās why Heās able to, supposedly, love us so much.
In a strange way, thatās the whole skill: to be able to lapse into a reasonable impersonation of yourself reading as if the prose in front of you (which youāve already read a million times) was entirely new to you. When we go through a section of text like this, monitoring our responses and making changes accordingly, this manifests to the reader as evidence of care. (We might say that a first-time reader is able to intuit the many less-cared-for versions of a sentence behind the one the writer let stand.)
... there are two things that separate writers who go on to publish from those who donāt.
First, a willingness to revise.
Second, the extent to which the writer has learned to make causality.
My capacity for language is reenergized. My internal language (the language in which I think) gets richer, more specific and adroit.
I find myself liking the world more, taking more loving notice of it (this is related to that reenergization of my language).
I feel luckier to be here and more aware that someday I wonāt be. I feel more aware of the things of the world and more interested in them.
So, thatās all pretty good.