Even as she had some sense of how shy Jones was, Morrison was taken aback by the timidity Jones expressed in the letter. This same writer who wrote the unimaginable seemed uncertain about everything and uncomfortable with anything other than writing.
I donât know what an agent-writer relationship should be. . . . I feel like Iâm in this really strange situation when all I really want to do is to be writing. I wouldnât even think about contracts. . . . Everything else seems scary and I am really unsure about myself and what I should be doing/saying. I hope that you will forgive me if in all the things coming at me for me to do and say, I have chosen the wrong thing(s) to do or say.
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Dissatisfied with her pace and injured by her critique of his writing style, Land arrived unannounced on Morrisonâs office in early summer. He expressed feelings of distrust of her and Random House. She cautioned him, first, against attempting to publish a book with an editor or company for which he had contempt. It was a foolâs errand. She followed up with a letter to make sure he got the point. She warned:
I cannot be strong-armed. It is simply an ineffective tactic because it makes me angry and uncooperative. Also it rips the thread of trust I assumed existed between us. . . .
We have been working on this since last November. I am excited about it, but very apprehensive about the turns your impatience have [sic] taken. None of this has to do with anything other than human frailty and the structures of vanityâ mine and yours, but I think it terribly important to articulate these things at the precise moment they can be helpful.
Morrison ended the letter with a trace of humility. She set that modesty aside quickly, however, and reinforced her letter with honest bravado, concluding with a final pitch about her confidence in the book.
I suspect this letter should include some information about myselfâ something to prevent you from ignoring this letterâ but thatâs probably presumptuous [sic] if not just a waste of letter reading time. Let me just say. . . :I want to publish books about usâ black peopleâ that will make some senseâ to give joy, to pass on some grandeur to all those black children (born and unborn) who need to get to the horizon with something under their arms besides Dick and Jane and the Rise & Fall of the Roman Empire. . . . I have already published some books that I believe do that. I know the one I have described to you will do more.
Morrison returned the manuscript as requested but also took a moment to write to Jordan directly.
Last Thursday I returned your material to your lawyer at her request. I didnât want to call you with if-y informationâ only with a yes or no. . . . I canât figure out why you didnât trust me; I know you wanted things settled but, had no idea there was a time crisis involved; . . . I would have felt so much better if you had given me the deadline and the ultimatum yourself. Keep doing the work though, I love it.
But by May 7, Morrison shifted from Durhamâs patient defender to his outright critic. The problem was that Durhamâs secretary (or whomever he sent to deliver the pages) left a mere thirty-eight pages. The fact that they seemed hastily done annoyed her. The clandestine delivery to the receptionist without asking to see or speak to Morrison or Silberman infuriated her. The package was dropped off âand hurried away,â as if the manuscript was a ransom note. She wrote Durham in full candor.
For some reason that I cannot quite explain I was ashamed. On every levelâprofessional, personalâ I felt a deep and painful embarrassment. . . . Only my vigorous and sincere agitation has kept this contract alive. . . . But the contempt for those efforts which you displayed in last Thursdayâs scenario left me so melancholy and so hurt I believed I would strangle if I didnât tell you how I felt. . . .
You have never seemed to choose candor in dealing with me, a fact that has depressed me for a long time now. . . . I could manage with your patronising me. I cannot manage with your contempt.
The fact that she knew the letter was coming and they had resolved the problem did little to avert Morrisonâs annoyance with the first letter. Flummoxed, she wrote:
I will probably always be befuddled about what you imagine this publishing company to be and about your reasons for ascribing sinister motives to a copyediting mistake of placing your name after Miller Williams. I can only assume you had some bad experiences with other publishers.
We make errors, Jim, and I am sure that I will never be wholly free of that frailty. What I (we) donât do is spend time thinking up silly ways to tell the world on a book jacket that one of our own authors is racially inferior to his co-author and/or has done âlessâ work. . . . But more than the misunderstanding, I regret the absence of trust which is the single most important ingredient to exist between author and editor. I wish you thought I deserved it.